Jay Chollick: The word’s most
harmless terrorist; shadowy
at the open mic; insufferable
in print; bookish in slim volumes;
p&a (prizes & awards) not the
bluest ribbons; big mouth
on the radio; a tv pipsqueak;
for which only his one hand claps
Jay Chollick: The word’s most
harmless terrorist; shadowy
at the open mic; insufferable
in print; bookish in slim volumes;
p&a (prizes & awards) not the
bluest ribbons; big mouth
on the radio; a tv pipsqueak;
for which only his one hand claps
It’s what,
huddled into our
dry minute, it’s what we must, with
desperate rapidity strap onto
us—our cat,
our elegiac Mozart,
our precious book—dark gods! the river’s
bursting over us; the car’s
.
Afloat; our hill of bland unmoving happiness
is washed
away;
and words,
trapped in the dark hole distance
of our throats,
too smashed to speak. We are
in the daylight of minus
sheen, new shifting
.
Things: no longer us
as thick and grossly solid—no longer
wet,
but pulverized
and powder
on the wind—all gone—
our sinews no longer intertwined
with trees, or even the limitless horizon
where an airy heart
can fly—we call on
.
Churches now, but just their
bells
to speak for us, our nearly fatal
weariness. Here,
in the thick of pleading, will our cat
be saved? And, not Mozart,
but his
.
Melodious ghost—and a text, brimming
with summer
or the death of light, will they—book
and music, will they
survive?
And will an ear be left to listen
with—or an eye
in its pure and steady meadow, be left
to read?
It’s when,
it’s when a van with a lopsided cry
is overturned; when corners
turn frightening—flying
without their rooms; and something
grinds
before loosening. Is it
.
In the darkening light, in the
dry pause
between lightnings—is it the habiliment
of a storm
that’s torn away?
Or glass carrying scarlet
when the wind has won the window
and the sashes bleed?
Or when
a tree’s re-rooted canopy
spurns the ground, what started
.
It, this hurricane? Was it
that small drop on your stocking, courier
of the impending rain? Or when
the demon rags, I mean the flags,
were whipped and the wind,
crying from an eerie throat
that normalcy—kaput!
had given up
.
That Spring’s mild bandages
were removed and the monstrous deformity
of the day—tectonic—titanic, who
cares? all
the plates—above and below—were now
shown split
and were unhinged
from it, the flower and the table,
tidy after dinnertime;
and the unfolding rhythms of a quarrel
.
Or a kiss. That quiet schedules
were gone. But
nothing lasts, the damaged sounds
of yammering and spent, are
all around; and on exhaustion, a decency
.
Of rain
Since my poetry no longer
sings—it has
no throat! I ask bleakness my good
friend, to walk
with me. We two—
he, whisper-thin; expressionless;
and I, into such silence sunk
that no word
.
Forms how could this
be? My poetry! Which once into its
milky ounce took
sunlight in. And crucial rainbows. Took in
a swan but capsized it; gave vent
to wrath, gave to
propulsive joy such
stinging force that concrete sang
and every noun in form’s
collapse turned blithering
to an adjective I cannot
write! Or think! I cannot, from
this world’s deepest grave
.
Be Lazarus
.
For I have been with acid
sprayed; beheaded; raped, left writhing
in my gutted hut I’m
Daniel Pearl! And Matthew
Shepherd I’m the Jew, six million
burnt—I’mAfrica. And
what is left
of ice—my water, reef, my oiled
.
Bird, so shaken
with Alaskan rage I die
with them, the world and its
indifference, mine. But how in conscience
write
of it? My poetry in
bewildered flight does n-o-t-h-i-n-g
does nothing
for the polar bear it cannot
stop the melting of his
.
Ice
With the world
down to its holy inch, betrayed,
and the eye with queasy sight
beholding it—then hell stays solid
and horror easily
.
Is looked upon. But if vision
faltering, overflows—laced
with grief, sub-human only
being seen—ghastly
to unbearable with petroleum
slobbering uncontrollably—why then
step back, replace it with a local
plague, make dying with
dim horror, neat; and propped up
by a new name
.
Made respectable. Start simple—with
questioning curiosity: why does
Scotlandfrom its purple,
leak, its summer-thistle, wan
and barely there, is this an airborne
rot, a sickening
.
Of plaid? And then, still
questioning—is it, this blur, is this
where pink against its blossom
dies—along with its
bewildered bee? Will we in sorrow
honor them, make sadness
liquid make it
sing? Or is our throat too tense
.
For madrigals? Does it scraped bare
show pity with no music
but a forming
scream? And, as withering leaves
no pink untouched, contagion
creeps: each meadow
canopied by glow, blooms grayish
.
Now; dry waters, choked
with sparkle, leave fish on their
dry waves, marooned. We cheer
a gnat—no swarm just one
is left, and that one freshly dying,
moves—but then
.
Does not. Each thing from its
deep place is sprung: a continent,
hacked frozen out of naked
age, ho-hum, just one more
.
Cold atrocity And where
in airy shambles, where poets
sit—they all with unbelieving eyes
watch bliss on listless ripples, leave,
the sweet haphazard
.
Perishing. And from this time
so richly calamitous that even
screaming shrieks—who cares, we’ve
died so many times
before, locked hands with
lifeless, touched
.
Invisibility. But scatter this
remembered life, now even death
flung seed-like, starts
to grow. And we on this long stalk
bloom iron
.
Now. But no bee sucking rust
is here—or robin
black-breast, that grounded
blot—like you, Somalia-infancy
with starving
.
Eyes. And, with only one harsh furrow
left, with a world too full
for burial, what else—maddened
by exclamation points, what else
to do but rouge-up
into jollity, gather in the ragged
of ourselves, but never
them: the ones who whisper, who tinker
in soft secrecy, who kill us
.
Smooth. Only we who read, who
think, who listen—bending our hearing
to the earth, the we, who gilded
by Maimonides and Aeschylus, in sync
with Bach—and dredge the harbor’s mud
for us, the we who sing—or on
the Matthew Arnold
.
Of a beach—who turn (as if
huge mankind
slowly shifts) who say
but speechless
with divinity, good morning light
When itemizing
the world do not use words—not
singly, or bundled dry
into a tedium of lists, they are the spawn
of arid alphabets and merely glance
at things—which is
.
Appalling! For though with words
we share a nitty-gritty appetite, our need
has teeth, we bite down
heavily—on everything, the world’s
our cud—and with
a steady grinding sound, we ruminate, chew
happily: on caves; on roots; whole tribes
(although we gag
on them) and soaking tributaries; great hooting
birds, all suctioned in
and ground down fibrous, to a
.
Wad—we bulge, with weighty tons
defining us. But we don’t only
swallow truth; to capture it, hardscrabble
hands
are indispensable—with nails
as long as spikes to impale,
then lift each speck pulled in—first
to be scrutinized;
touched; then simply to be
.
Marveled at—who cares
if the eye, goggling with amazement, with
fortified sight, imprisons
clouds. Or that, into the autumn
turning luminous a finger
points, and to a pond of petty silver,
lures
.
The swan. The world (and squelch
the bovine imagery) the world, with its
curiously embellished paths,
is ours. We know its fire, that licking
ecstasy; and why,
when discovery comes suddenly, it always
.
Yelps—cries out, “Antarctica!” when it’s
first glimpsed and white
is slowly shuddered through. Or when they
lift, the bending oceans to our
slowly lowered toe, and we touch claws, fins,
and salty wash the minnows down—
at last cold joy, we’re part
of them, we’ve opened sandy windows
to their life
We must
inside our clotted lives, grow fierce
each hand
a fist, and make of simple arms
an armature. We are
crude signs and chanting bodies
massed, fresh-faced
and generous—it’s with the beating
immediacy
of slogans—defiance marching
cocky (our advance-platoon) that we
enter it, hugehuge—Time’s fabled
room, the melancholia
of history, dampish with old
posters hung; but we don’t
look and push its dulled remains
.
Aside: the seedy colonnades, where
Utopias in their half-light,
sag. where systems once triumphant
rot, and to a monumental
sludge—the vast room, sinking
.
Under it. But when to our impatient
eye a rat-plagued time
is glimpsed, when hairshirt whore
and heretic were half
the world—Savonarola burning
in a purple cloak, we shout
.
Enough! And twisting with
modernity blow off his corpse, drag
Wall Street drag Zuccatti in,
the Park in its entirety: each tree,
the tents
the sleeping bags make way—and
cordoned by police make way
for siren sounds, the din through
strident microphones
intensified—fists raised and by
the internet unplugged—the world!
what’s pent-up, spewing
.
Into us and bursting red, spraying
its dripping fury
on the walls we are
transformed, shaken by exposure
to our deepest wound—we were
.
Betrayed! By everything!
By Government and by our own
soft weakness
in exposing it: the sinister
financial sleaze, the
Wall Street cheap‘n easy
housing bait, which we, performing
dogs, delirious
on toxic credit grabbed—it was
and overwhelmingly, our way
of life. It’s why, Zucatti-stuffed!
hoarse-voice—disheveled
ragtag we are
.
Shouting it! That corruption
was complicit: the regulators, falsifying
the fact; the us—the we—forever
reaching greedy
for a fairytale; the government
with its face pulled off—no eye to see
and nothing left to sniff
.
The stink. Of how the richest one
percent have picked theU.S.pocket
clean, assuaged, choking
on jewels
with fat & feelgood charity with
meager tax bucks
dragged noblesse oblige
to pisspoor trickle down
.
On us, gross B&C (that’s bread
& circus) the ninety nine percent
who pinhead brushed the theft
aside. And why—the hasty
placards going up, why with
newly focused fury was a promise
lost?—to extricate
from bottomless, the wars! the wars!
.
Though one was by twin-traitors
hatched; a war-crime dreamed
so hideous that we, still
bleeding—drained bankrupt
are too weak to speak—or move—
.
Or clarify. And since all history
is united here, we ask Zuccatti, fresh
from the street to place his
young hand, kind, in ours, help lift
Iraqits dead-fleshed vet—but not yet
snugly body bagged
.
And to his
sacrificial meat, pin valor’s frigid medal
on. Let eyes still blank with youth
read painfully: You’ve Died
For Traitors, Arlington (the letters
blur) You’ve Died
With Grisly Truth—For Lies
Astounded molecule! Transfigured
self! which, from
a simple singularity
becomes, leaping
theMississippi, becomes
.
The West—honk! honk! a body
turned metropolis, its multitude
of selves: the wind with
hard modernity,
slapping it; and where
outlandish crystal is, built
.
Huge. Where nature
is an unwept
seed; and with the manic lifting
of a wing, with a generalized
infection
where the birds the birds
.
Are vanishing. It’s where
an ever-moving traffic—stalls
or muddled, chokes; or moving swift
on this exhausted
boulevard O citizens! To understand
be more than flesh take metal
on—and wheels; a radio—pulsate
.
With it, our speeding ears
glued into onto over it some billboard
on the retina, the selfsame drivel
flashing past, was it, this
boulevard was it ever
.
Young? Simple in its early
life—when it, hard-bitten mud, was
Main Street once, was
hitching posts; a bar just two
dust-dreary footsteps
up; a bank, the drygoods standing
next to it—and Zeke O whisky
of eternal thirst—scruffy
bearded boozehead! And walking
Miss Aurora
turns, slender with raw gingham
worn but what vexatious
sound
.
Is that? El Paso—no-o-o…
butSacramento
into music, its accordion its
banjo and the gunshot
puff. And with everything bleak
frayed leather
talk; horse-hide snortingly
magnificent, is that
no coach, but Conestoga only,
a wagon’s rolled up carted
dust still choking
‘
In the memory—awful
to the spine is this poor page
called Saddlebag? And,
has it with jolting immediacy
come back—in all its
optimistic
fervor, red white
and bloody breathing hard
has it come back
.
To live?
O holy globe,
against God’s knotted fist
hang quietly—slight sway perhaps
when smoothed
by clouds, or slicked
to longitudinal length
by rain. Or
.
With massive thrust
when the equator in broad and
reverent measure
is reached—and how
it steams, O holy globe—
down to the prime
meridian, to latitude, measured
taut! stay peaceful
under the quiet lines—immutable
.
But even we, who muddy it
who are displaced who starve
or who exalt in it, we are
still holy
with the globe—at one
with dust, with what
a fertile Greenland breeds, the spawn
of ice
.
With oceans, continents, the
pretty wave,
the bird, beating on its own
simplicity, the air’s blue
crown—but we, we cannot rest,
be still, forgetful
in our own blind nature, to hang
a sloth! our veins
in mad pulsation never
.
Stop, they say, paint; sculpt,
they say kill; say eye, poor
old Gloucester,
pluck it out! They say topple, tearing it;
say build, eat, drink
and fucking screw the thing—our
sun-yellow eden they say
breathe, say
sickening and host the germ,
say write the rainbow
they say
.
Live!
With the world
down to its holy inch, betrayed,
and the eye with queasy sight
beholding it—then hell stays solid
and horror easily
.
Is looked upon. But if vision
faltering, overflows—laced
with grief, sub-human only
being seen—ghastly
to unbearable with petroleum
slobbering uncontrollably—why then
step back, replace it with a local
plague, make dying with
dim horror, neat; and propped up
by a new name
.
Made respectable. Start simple—with
questioning curiosity: why does
Scotlandfrom its purple,
leak, its summer-thistle, wan
and barely there, is this an airborne
rot, a sickening
.
Of plaid? And then, still
questioning—is it, this blur, is this
where pink against its blossom
dies—along with its
bewildered bee? Will we in sorrow
honor them, make sadness
liquid make it
sing? Or is our throat too tense
.
For madrigals? Does it scraped bare
show pity with no music
but a forming
scream? And, as withering leaves
no pink untouched, contagion
creeps: each meadow
canopied by glow, blooms grayish
.
Now; dry waters, choked
with sparkle, leave fish on their
dry waves, marooned. We cheer
a gnat—no swarm just one
is left, and that one freshly dying,
moves—but then
.
Does not. Each thing from its
deep place is sprung: a continent,
hacked frozen out of naked
age, ho-hum, just one more
.
Cold atrocity And where
in airy shambles, where poets
sit—they all with unbelieving eyes
watch bliss on listless ripples, leave,
the sweet haphazard
.
Perishing. And from this time
so richly calamitous that even
screaming shrieks—who cares, we’ve
died so many times
before, locked hands with
lifeless, touched
.
Invisibility. But scatter this
remembered life, now even death
flung seed-like, starts
to grow. And we on this long stalk
bloom iron
.
Now. But no bee sucking rust
is here—or robin
black-breast, that grounded
blot—like you, Somalia-womanly
with starving
.
Eyes. And, with only one harsh furrow
left, with a world too full
for burial, what else—maddened
by exclamation points, what else
to do but rouge-up
into jollity, gather in the ragged
of ourselves, but never
them: the ones who whisper, who tinker
in soft secrecy, who kill us
.
Smooth. Only we who read, who
think, who listen—bending our hearing
to the earth, the we, who gilded
by Maimonides and Aeschylus, in sync
with Bach—and dredge the harbor’s mud
for us, the we who sing—or on
the Matthew Arnold
.
Of a beach—who turn (as if
huge mankind
slowly shifts) who say
but speechless
with divinity, good morning light